February...

February has brought me a little discomfort…I am in a constant state of memories…this is the week I began nesting…I was not sure why I did this…but I had to get everything perfect for my baby last year…I was obsessed with it…I remember Chad was gone and me and Max did it all…put together the crib…made the room perfect…everything was cleaned and very cute…I remember needing a new bumper and I could not sleep until I got it…it was so important to me…and I found the perfect one…at that time we did not know if Maddox was a boy or a girl…I did not have any clothes yet…but I was not concerned about that…just the bed and room…on Feb 17 I had the no bubble ultra sound, Feb 23 amino synthesis, and Feb 25 2:10 pm to be exact… I found out Maddox was a girl and she was positive for Trisomy 21…after that there was no nesting…no baby shower, no car seat, no clothes…no nothing…just tears and fears…one year later…she sleeps with me in my bed…and we cuddle…today she is sleeping peacefully and I am glad she is home…