Friday, April 2, 2010

Silly me :}

Silly comes to mind…when I look back at this past year…silly for how I have approached everything that has to do with my daughter…silly that I thought my little girl would not smile because she would be as mad as her mom about carrying an extra chromosome…I never thought she would laugh at her brother and follow his every move…I really believed that she would not love the little things like riding in the car and going over bumps FaST…she giggles sooo cute…it is heart melting…silly that I thought she was going to be “different”...silly that I thought we were ALWAYS going to be in the doctors office with her being sick…silly that I thought she was not going to be naughty and feisty…turns out she is both…silly how I would not put her in elastic waist band pants…and now realizing it is really all that she likes to wear…silly that I thought she would never be invited to a birthday party…or want to grow and learn…but it is really getting obvious that she is more like a “normal” little person…then a child that needs to be looked at different…or with pause…a friend said to me…Maddie looks just fine with having Down Syndrome…”she is” I said…I seem to be the one that is not fine…so as silly as it may seem sitting in the movie “How to train your Dragon” I realized that I am the dragon being trained by Maddie…everything I thought I knew about my little girl…the stereotypes…the “how to” books that tried to warn me, scare me, and help me…are just plain silly…

2 comments:

  1. I just wanted to tell you how much this post has touched me, I cried reading it. I am only four months into this new journey with my little boy and I hope to one day be able to write "silly me" I have read through your blog and have just loved it. So many of the things you have written are things I needed to hear another Mother say. Thank you

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  2. LOVE this post! Maddie is changing you... and I'm loving reading your journey. I've felt many of your feelings in the first year. I'm so happy that those feelings I had are so over... so gone... I pray she continues to amaze you at how much she is like other kids...

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