thank you...

Its hard to talk about yourself…and the trials of being a parent…when a person that you have grown to know, follow and genuinely care about…has suffered an imaginable loss…I did not want to believe what I heard on facebook…and continued to hold out hope for the little girl that I have talked about many times with Chad…for those of you not in the Ds community…we lost a little girl last week VERY suddenly…and it threw me into a realization that…my worries about Maddie driving, etc. are as sine…that they are over dramatic…and could be taken down right offensive…. What I am trying to say is that…I really need to take inventory…of the beautiful little girl I have right now…that is trying to show herself to me…and recently I have been really getting to know her personality…her love…her sweetness…I realized that when she wakes up she gives HUGE hugs to me…and yet I did not catch it before….I realized she can give kisses when I ask for them…my Maddie is truly the neatest little girl I have ever met…a little about the blogging community…I have never felt so much a part of something…I have never felt so needed and valued…I talk about you all like I would a friend that lives down the street….your trials our mine…I learn from you all and it helps me grow …and be a better mom…I could have not made it through this year with out each and everyone of you…so thank you for always taking the time to listen….