it is a process...

this morning when my princess awoke….she looked as funny as ever! her hair in her face…crinkle in her nose... her eyes squinting so tight they were almost closed…but so wanting to make eye contact and smile…when she is picked up she lets out a long loud SIGH…the whole process I have begun to really enjoy…for a long time I felt that Maddie was my duty…a responsibly…a burden…like I was doing her a favor by letting her live…so I think I was feeling resentment (REALLY YA THINK)…towards my Maddie that has done nothing but try to give me love…so when I was drinking my coffee and she was trying to steal sips…I caught her intensely staring at me…then she would catch my eye and she would giggle…the sweetest giggle…and I knew she has forgiven me for all my thoughts of resentment and selfishness…I also realized that someday soon…she will wear my lip gloss, prance in my high heels…and believe in mermaids…just like her mom!