older is good...Grrrr...

as I was watching the View this morning...they were talking about having babies after 40 and how it is very rewarding to be an older parent...I appreciated there was not talk about the risks of having a baby after 40...because I think the only risk of kids after 40 is the baby pounds do not come off as easily... in a few years I will be 40 years old...it is does not bother me to much considering my 20's are worth forgetting...and so far my 30's have been pretty fabulous...parenthood has been better then I had bargained for...so as I get older I seem to get more comfortable with me...I am ok that I like hip hop pop music...and I still like the videos...and I like to dance and sing like no one is in the room...the other night we went ice skating...we had a blast...after 20 years + of no ice skating I picked it up like it was yesterday (so I thought)...it was funny Max was work'n the ice teaching himself....and this 4 or 5 year old comes over to me and says do you want to race? I said oh ya! he said ok gooooo I did and I was doing really good...the next thing I knew I was flat on my tummy sliding across the ice...it was AWESOME!! it was "normal" and I laughed...Chad was rolling and Max and Maddie did not know what to think...so they both followed suit and laughed...little things is what I appreciate more then ever....I notice more...today driving down the road with the music bumping and the kids dancing....was "normal" it was good...the older I seem to get and the more experiences I go through seems to make me more confident more at ease with what is our reality...the more I observe, the more I see that my ideal of what I thought marriage and family were...was very off base...that family is what you make of it...if you choose to be busy and consumed by keeping up with Jones...then you will be busy...if you choose to have a quiet slow world...then that is what you have...I have people comment alot that they could not do what I do in regards to Maddie...I think how could you not do what I do...I just love and do what my family expects me to do...I taught them how to treat me...I taught them what to expect of me...so being Maddie's parent really is no different then being Max's parent...I am looking forward to my 40's...a cougar has always been one of my favorite animals ;)

ants in his pants!