Wednesday, December 29, 2010

year in review...

I could sum up 2010 as a roller coaster of emotions and wasted energy…this year I figured out most everything I have worried about has been for nothing…stereotypes have fell by the waste side…new realistic assumptions have emerged loosely…and I have bonded with my child…I realized this “usually” happens within the first hours of a babies life…but bonding does not happen when you are in the NICU unable to touch your baby and then dealing with the unknowns of having a baby that was not in your dreams…it has taken me 2 years to come to grips of having a child born with Down Syndrome…it has taken me two years to love her completely for who she is…Maddie got sick this week…she was having troubles sleeping and breathing…a couple of months ago I would have just medicated her and put her in her bed and get the sleep that I thought I needed and the depression demanded…this week I realized I held her for 48 hours straight and made sure she was going to be ok…yes it is “just” a cold and ear infection…but for Maddie it can turn bad fast…I want her to be ok…I am addicted to my Maddie…I cannot wait to see what she will teach me…I cannot wait to love her and hold her…and get a glimpse of her infectious smile…as my fuzz has lifted I can enjoy and marvel at the GREAT strides (milestones) and celebrate them all…in 2010 Maddie has mastered rolling over, sitting up, army crawling, 4 point crawling, bear crawling, pulling to stand, walking with assistance…Maddie drinks only from a open cup or straw cup…she is eating eggs on occasion and still learning to chew and swallow…at 19 months Maddie finally got a tooth…her first tooth is a shark tooth located on the bottom front…and she is popping out all 4 molars as we type…Maddie is still on the “normal” growth chart…I am so excited she is 1% for height and 8% for weight…Maddie weights a whopping 20 pounds and is standing 29 inches tall…she is such a BIG girl! on the Ds chart she is 25% for height and almost 50% for weight...Maddie has a hand full of words and signs to help her communicate her wants and needs…in 2010 Maddie and I have come to an agreement that she will not she will not give up on me and my issues with accepting the unknown and change…and I will not give up on her and just be…smiles to 2011

8 comments:

  1. Good job, Mama! She's lucky to have you.

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  2. Sounds like you've both reached some milestones. :) here's to a wonderful 2011!!

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  3. Sounds to me like 2011 is going to be a GREAT year for you and your family! Yay for a first tooth and for eating eggs! Maddie is amazing and you are so lucky to have her....but you already knew that! :)

    Happy New Year friend!!!!

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  4. Such a sweet post. I love your last lines with the agreement you have together. You and Maddie are doing great!

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  5. Yeah for a great 2011! I need to get some signing times for Arina and get her started signing!

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  6. Loved this post Kim...I remember when I first came across your blog some of your posts were about your concerns and fears and wondering when Maddie would do this or that...And now she is doing EVERYTHING! And I just take a lot of comfort in reading that all your worries were for nothing...Right now I am trying to keep myself out of a panic of why Russell isnt mobile yet, or even seeming CLOSE to being mobile!! Seems like everyone elses kid at least rolls or scoots to where they want to go...Why doesnt Russell?? But then I remember reading how much you worried, but in time Maddie did it all...So I am trying to be patient.
    I love hearing how happy you are and how great Maddie is doing :)

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  7. Loved this post Kim thanks for sharing and your honesty, it makes me feel a bit more 'normal' I am having a struggle at the moment and I know I will come through it but reading that others have gone through it is so encouraging. blessings for 2011 V/

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  8. I think this is my favorite post you have ever written--it's so full of love and hope and joy. Thanks for sharing!

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