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Tuesday, December 21, 2010

do not catch me...

To say I am not a little sad…would be a little lie…I am bummed that the little boy that I take care of is catching Maddie…he is 10 months younger then she is…and he is 4 point crawling-- perfect…better then Maddie…he is pulling to stand, and assisted walking--within days of him scooting forward…so I got her little walker out and had him show her how to use it…she just got mad at him and started yelling at him…her little whhoowhho and shaking of the head made me think there could be some boat language (cussing) in there…so she came over and knocked him down and took the walker away…they are the same height but she has about 7 pounds on him…so she sits on him at will…which is every time I turn around…Maddie has begun chasing him with not so good intentions…I do believe cognitively she is ahead of him…she knows more signs and understands our words with some direction…I always kidded with his parents that they would walk at the same time…but I thought my girl would do it first…I am scared and sad that she will not…that she will be surpassed by a younger gent...I know not to compare…but it is so hard when it is so in my face day in and day out...the delays that are there…and the worry that she will never catch up…will she catch up?…I am not thinking she will…I do not think catching up is our reality I think it will always be on Maddie’s timetable…and that is hard for me to take…my Maddie can gurgle and blow bubbles…and she does give the best hugs and licks…on that note…Maddie has begun to joke with us with her tongue…she sticks it out to the side then laughs! And will do this for a long time making us all giggle…Maddie has a great personality and I am excited to watch her grow and see who she becomes…but always in the back of my mind I am thinking what if?


  1. Oh, I know that feeling well, and how burned it made me feel when I discovered that younger children were walking/talking earlier than Samantha. The scary thing for me now is based on some of the cartoons Samantha watches, like Caillou or Little Bill, where the main characters are 4 or 5 years old, and I'm seeing how much further ahead of her they are as she catches them up and surpasses them in age. They don't get older, but she sure does.

  2. You know how much I understand, as I just posted about this the other day. You're definately stronger than I am. There's not anything I can say to make you feel differently. Or better. Just know I feel ya. Hugs.

  3. I am not really around anyone else who has a baby Russells age or even younger...But I have friends on facebook with babies the same age as him and whenever I see pictures of them doing something Russell cant...Its stings...It makes me sad. Even though I also know I shouldnt compare and he will do all these things in time...It still hurts a little.
    But I have to say, ha ha, as I read your little description of Maddie chasing the little boy down and perhaps cussing him out, it made me laugh...ahhh, Maddie, she sounds like my kind of girl!!

  4. Claire goes to daycare with a little boy 1 week younger than her. Claire rolled first and I have to admit I was so excited. I knew it was likely the last milestone she would achive first...Most of the time it doesn't bother me, but there are days it sure does sting. I love Maddie cussing, I'm sure Claire does the same thing (within all her yelling), when she can't quite keep up.

  5. I feel you! I have multiple friends who have kids that are my son's age. I have been able to accept the fact my little guy is behind his peers. What really got me, though, was when my friend's daughter, who is 13 months younger than my son, started walking before he did. I know that at the end of the day, none of this really matters, but sometimes, it bothers me.

  6. Hey- I just wanted to say hi and introduce myself. I saw your post on Unforeseen Gifts- Erin's blog- we also are doing the straw therapy- if you need/want someone to problem solve with. We use thickener with it- I'm not sure if you do or not. Your Maddie is cute as a bug! My 4 year old is Madeline- Maddie for short. I totally feel you on the catching up thing. One of my good friends had a baby last April- at 6 months he started crawling- at the same time my 20 month old did. Sigh...I know not to compare too but that still stung.

  7. I know. I so nervously await all the milestones that are coming my buggie's way. I just try so hard not to think about it.
    It has to be so much harder for you with it there, right there, for you to see firsthand.
    Your Maddie is perfect though. Exactly as she is intended to be. Beautiful.